I’ve been thinking about a lot lately. A lot about school, and that Spread the Love thing I applied for, the more I think about it the more I want it to happen. I re-read over the terms and conditions again tonight. I still can’t get over it. I feel like I should of read them before I made my video essay, I should of said a little more about myself, and what I like to do, and I should of set my web-cam up differently, but I can’t change that know, now I’m just hoping to be a semi-finalist! I read over the application for that, and it sounds challenging, but I’m sure if I’m chosen to be a semi-finalist then I can do it.
I was messing around on iTunes and my most listened to music is La Dispute, I thought that was funny.
I’ve been so busy lately, I haven’t been writing much, sorry! Well This week was okay, I was very stressed out, Yesterday was nice, it took my mind off things for a while. I went down by Ohio, to see my cousins. I haven’t seen them in about six months. It was a over all good time, Katie and I stayed there until midnight, Then on our way home we stopped at a friends house, and saw Billy and Dylan, it was fun. Okay, I have to get ready for work now, I’ll write more later!
This week has been a tough one, for sure. I’m getting through it okay. I’m happy I have a wonderful boyfriend, who I love dearly, I have my baby Jenny, My family, and of course my best friend Kalli. I’m excited for tomorrow! I finally get to see Billy! Also I’m getting a new tattoo, finally! the one I’ve been planning the longest, on the side on my finger, it’s going to say ‘nevermore’ that’s why I just posted that little bit of the poem :] I love Poe’s work, his short stories are amazing, like ‘Loss of Breath” so good. Anyways, I have to go to work now. Nice chat tumblr.
“But the raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only
That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour.
Nothing further then he uttered- not a feather then he fluttered -
Till I scarcely more than muttered, “other friends have flown before -
On the morrow he will leave me, as my hopes have flown before.”
Then the bird said, “Nevermore.””—Poe
Blue Sky Noise is making my bad mood a little bit better. My parents are putting my dog Milo down tomorrow, I’m so upset. I cried on the way to school, and during my facial test. Ughhhh I feel childish, but what can I do? Not much. All I really wanted to do today was cuddle up to my boyfriend, so he could make it all better, but of course that didn’t happen. I feel like I should see obvious things coming. Tomorrow at cosmetology school were putting together our state bored kits, I went to the store to find some small containers, for cholesterol, disinfectant, etc. and Walmart didn’t really have any, it was awful. I usually don’t shop there, I feel like I wont ever go back there, they didn’t have much of anything. After I went to the store I met up with Katie, Jenna, Kalli, and Stephanie, it was a good time. It got my mind off things for a while.
Today was long. I woke up early and went to my boyfriends house. He would rather sleep, than hang out, :[ so I left. I went and got my twin sister Katie, and we got Kalli, we went to Gregg’s for some awesome slice specials. Then we went to the art shoe in the village, it was very nice, we all got really crafty necklaces, I like them a lot. Kalli wanted her finger nails to say “Danger Days” for the new My Chemical Romance album that’s coming out soon, so we polished her nails, and I made them say “Danger Days” they looks really good, when she post a picture of them I’ll re-blog it. Work was ridiculously slow. I drove my mom’s car around all day, it was nice :]
I’m so tired. Last night was fun! I went to bed at like 7 am, or 8am. Laid in bed with Billy for a while, it was nice, we haven’t done that in a while. Just laid down, cuddled, and talked about stuff. I woke up around 10:30 am, went to work at 4pm. Now I’m at Kalli’s house, super tired.
Tell me where we go from here? This broken city sky, like butane on my skin, stolen from my eyes.
Hello, Angel tell me where are you? Tell me where we go from here
And in this moment, we cant close our lids, on burning eyes. Our memories blanket us with friends we know like fallout vapors
Steel corpses stretch out towards us, an ending sun, scorched and black. It reaches in and tears your flesh apart as ice cold hands rip into your heart.
That’s if you’ve still got one that’s left inside that cave you call a chest And after seeing what we saw, can we still reclaim our innocence And if the world needs something better, let’s give them one more reason now
I just applied for Spread the Love 2011, it was stressful, half way though the application it said to make a video essay, so I just spent the last hour and a half making the best video essay I could! On November 1st I will know if I’m a semi-finalist! I hope i get it! I feel like this is so random, how there choosing people, but I qualify! Thats good!
Today sucked, a lot. I spent my day alone. At cos Cece and Courtney didn’t come, CeCe’s sick :[ Courtney woke up late. I woke up late, so I showed up to cos looking like a hot mess, I only got like 3 hours of sleep. I went to lunch alone, and I didn’t have any cigarettes all day. I went home and fell asleep. I woke up at 7:50pm and thought Billy wanted me to get him from work, cause we talked about it last night, but I guess not. He didn’t want to hang out :c But I was driving around cause I thought he wanted me to get him. Then I was stressed and I bought cigs and gas. When I got home I thought Kalli was at my house! But my mom got a new car, and it’s little and tan, like Kalli’s, I should of paid more attention ha, my mom’ is a Mercedes, and Kalli’s got a Honda, there similar shapes and colors hah. Ive been really debating signing up for this thing Matrix is doing. It’s called Spread The Love, and all I have to do is graduate cosmetology school before the end of December (which I am) and send them links to my Facebook, Myspace, Twitter, and Blog. Only six people get chosen, and if you’re lucky and get chosen, you get to travel around the country for six months with Matrix top stylist! That would be incredible, it would change my life in so many ways. I think I’m going to go apply right now! hah.
“Truth is it was sorrow that I made and would not face.
See, I keep falling for the future after tripping on the past.
And I am always tearing sutures out to make the anguish last like it defines me.
Or reminds me I’ve found comfort in my suffering
and uncertainty in happiness and death,
because what’s next is such a mystery to me.
I am terrified of all the things I feel but cannot see.”—
I had an overall good weekend, paid my school tuition off, paid my bills, ordered a new school uniform, and got out of school an hour early on Friday! I got some extra hours in at work! Fixed my car up, spent time with my boo, and some friends. I’m happy I get out of school at 2:15 all this week! I work all week, on Wensday I think I’m going to register to vote! My step-dad thinks I’m a coumunist cause I hav’nt done that yet. Also I think I’m going to stop by Bluz to get some things cut down, like my medusa, and my belly button (bottom). I’m going to try and wake up a little early tomorrow for school, so I have time to make myself look nice hahah. This week should be good :3 On Friday I’m babysitting for Leah while she’s at a wedding! Yay extra money haha. I should get to bed now, I have to wake up bright and early for cosmetology school!
I’m happy today is Friday! I got out of cos school a hour early, and I didn’t have to go to work! Cos was easy today, Courtney and I pretty much have been hanging out with each other all day. We went to the court house, went and got a badly needed oil change, went to the park with some friends, now shes doing my hair!